If I had to name one thing in my life that I continuously struggle with in my day to day wellness, it would be sleeping. I’m a terrible sleeper. My mom isn’t a great sleeper and my son isn’t a great sleeper. We don’t sleep well, or long, or with much actual rest.
Interestingly, right after I mentioned on the blog how I wanted to start writing and sharing prayers, I entered a week of significant wakefulness. No matter what time I went to bed, I was awake around 1-2 am, with little hope of resting more. Thoughts of work, people, people at work, people at home, pets, and everything in between strolled into my sleepy brain space with no plan to leave.
Finally, I got the point that the Holy Spirit was gifting me with the opportunity to pray specifically about the sleeplessness I was experiencing. And the last two nights have been gloriously slept.
If you’re struggling to find rest and sleep, please join me in this prayer prior to retreating for the night. I pray that you’re gently ushered into a night of rest and that your sleep is sweet.
God, it’s me. Your beloved and tired child. Thank You for today and for all the ways You were working – even the ones I didn’t see right away. Now that my heart is quiet and I’m entering a deliberate space of repose for the evening, I’m able to reflect on the things You were doing. Thank You for loving me so well. Thank You for caring for the people whom I care about, too. Thank You for giving me ways and areas in which I could show Your love to people in my world.
While You intentionally put some things in motion that would certainly allow me to practice the gifts of the Holy Spirit, I didn’t always do that today, Lord. Please forgive me for when I was inpatient and when I didn’t show grace. Please forgive me for when I felt like I had to do all the things on my own and forgive my prideful heart. Please forgive the times that I could’ve shown a spirit of contentment today, but instead I chose to show exasperation. And, thank You, for loving me – even when I’m so messy – enough to allow us to be in this sacred heart space together.
* stay still and quiet. Be patient when sitting in space with Him and listen to His heart for you. *
God, You are the Creator all of things; the flowers, the trees, the animals, the oceans, the mountains, the clouds, the sky, and me. Your care and love for everything is evident. Your care and love for me is evident. Your desire for me to rest well is known and You long for me to allow Your loving peace to wash over me so that I may find comfort, and sleep. Thank You for desiring for me what I’m not always able to bring to the forefront. Tonight, though, I’m releasing the things that try to keep me from sleep into Your tender care. You are my protector and provider. I’m letting go of all the things I’ll be facing tomorrow, so that I may enter Your peace for the night. You are my peace.
Psalm 121 (ESV)
My Help Comes from the Lord
A Song of Ascents.
121 I lift up my eyes to the hills.
From where does my help come?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot be moved;
he who keeps you will not slumber.
4 Behold, he who keeps Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The Lord is your keeper;
the Lord is your shade on your right hand.
6 The sun shall not strike you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The Lord will keep you from all evil;
he will keep your life.
8 The Lord will keep
your going out and your coming in
from this time forth and forevermore.
God of my heart, God of my life, and God in my slumber.