“Are you ready to be less than a mere drop in the bucket–to be so totally insignificant that no one remembers you even if they think of those you served? Are you willing to give and be poured out until you are used up and exhausted–not seeking to be ministered to, but to minister?” ~~ Oswald Chambers
After I read the quote by Chambers, I had to find my place again.
Even while writing this post, I’ve backspaced and deleted over and again (I totally just took out 5 solid paragraphs) because my flesh is looking for the right to lash out and justify my own feelings. Trying to find words to say what I want to say, but put a spin on it so that it looks pretty and not like an attack. But it isn’t pretty. My heart is a little bit ugly right now. My flesh DOES want to lash out. And my Father just continues to remind me that I’m being “poured out until I’m used up and exhausted,” and that’s okay. It’s what He’s called me to do. He sees me and He’s trying to remind me that He is all that matters.
Hebrews 13:16 says, Do not neglect to do good and to share what you have, for such sacrifices are pleasing to God. It doesn’t say, do not neglect to do good and share what you have, for such sacrifices are pleasing to God and to man and you will be shown much gratitude when you do it and that person or this person will call to tell you how much they appreciate everything you’ve done.
Giving is easy. We should always be looking for ways we can give to others, love others, show mercy to others, have grace with others, show kindness, etc… Yet, all of these things may never come with a thank you or a kind word and we need to be okay with that too. In fact, it could be met with a mean-spirit and gossip. And that’s when we cling to God tighter, “my flesh and heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart,” (Psalm 73:26).
This post shouldn’t be encouragement to be a doormat for people. I believe it’s very much all right to have boundaries with people, especially those who are not safe people. It should serve as a reminder, though, that it is always about Him and what He’s putting before us. Sometimes, in fact… usually, it means taking the lowly road. The most humble position and serving even if no one remembers. When it’s all about Him, the world might tell us we’re “totally insignificant,” but not to Him. Never to Him.
So, for today and forevermore, let’s hold open the door for people without an expectation of a “thank you” when they pass through. Throw a few dollars to someone who might need it. Return someone’s cart to the little cart house thingy bobber. Help a neighbor carry in groceries. Open your home to someone. In Colossians 3:17, the Bible says, and whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.
In the big scheme of things, we are serving people – sure – but we’re really serving Him. I want to be that person. All the time. Without stipulation, without expectation, and without a thought – it’s so natural that it’s just who I am. Many of us have that heart, I’ve seen it in action too many times. However, if any of you are a little bit like me, then maybe sometimes, you feel unappreciated or unnoticed. Take heart, my friend, the King of Kings notices you. And loves you, wildly.